Should I feel bad and ashamed of myself? People take the mick out of me for a disability? (UK)?

Hello everyone, first of all I know I have asked this before, but I am now posting it in this section as I other people's opinions and thoughts. I am 19 years old soon to be 20, I live in Cambridgeshire which is in England. I have got a mild learning disability, and I went to a special needs school. My older and younger brother called me horrid names such as retar., spast.c, they call me things like physco and useless, and I have never had paid employment but I have got 18 months of work experience (Voluntary) I have worked at the Co-Op and at Tesco's. My brothers say I have been to so many job interviews and I will never get a job because they say I'm a spast.c and a retar. they say I wasted my time at collge and I haven't got good enough qualifications to get a job, here is the full list of all of my qualifications The qualifications I gained at school: * The FA Football Development Programme, Junior Football Organisers Course * Edexcel, Entry Level Certificate subjects, English Entry Level 3, RE Entry Level 2 * AOA, Entry Level 3 in Science * OCR, Entry Level 3's in, Information And Communication Technology, and Physical Education * Edexcel, GCSE Certificate grade E in Art And Design * OCR, GCSE Certificate in Mathematics grade G * Bronze Duke of Edinburgh Award * Trinity College London Bronze Level 1 Award in the Arts Qualifications gained at college * FE Level Up Award Bronze * OCR, National Skills Profile, Retail * Young Lives, Certificate of Achievment, as a Vinvolved volunteer with the Prince's Trust Team * OCR, Level 1 Certificate in Adult Numeracy * City & Guilds, Certificate of unit credit towards Personal Development and contributing to the community, Entry 3 planning for prpgression, Entry 3 Community project, Level 1 Career planning and making applications, Level 1 Supporting others, Level 1 Work- based experience * College course learner of the month award * City & Guilds Level 1 Certificate in Adult Literacy * City & Guilds Level 2 Certificate in Adult Literacy * Edexcel, Certificate of unit achievment, Level 1's in Applying for a job, Preparing for an interview and Interview skills * Nocn, Credit/s Awarded, Entry Level 3's in, Developing skills for use and maintaining garden tools, Introduction to propagation of plants, Induction to College, Developing an awareness of soil types, Introduction to garden horticulture, Developing skills for sowing and growing plants. * City & Guilds, Level 1 iTQ Certificate for IT users * City & Guilds Certificate of Unit Credit Towards, ITQ for IT Users, Level 1's in, improving productivity using IT, IT User Fundamentals, Using Email, Using mobile IT devices, and, Presentation software. City & Guilds Functional skills qualification in Information and Communication Technology (ICT) Entry Level 3 * City & Guilds Functional skills qualification in Mathematics at Entry Level 3 * Edexcel BTEC Entry Level 3 in Workskills * Edexcel Notification of Performance, Entry Level 3's in Managing Your Own Money, and, Planning An Enterprise Activity Other certificates and qualifications: Level 1 in football coaching, FA Emergency First Aid FA Safeguarding Children My older brother is a personal trainer and my younger brother is doing a level 2 IT course at college. My dad knows the names that they call me as he has heard them and I have told him, but he never does anything about it, and he said the other week I'm a physco and I have got mentle problems. I have recently started as a volunteer at Oxfam, and I am hoping to volunteet at a youth club soon. I have also recently started studying for my maths level 2 qualification. I am also soon to start a CompTIA A+ 2009 course. I am also hoping to start a ECDL Level 2 soon, a level 2 NVQ in Customer Service, a English GCSE, a level 2 and level 3 NVQ's in youth work. Website Design level 2 and 3. Text Processing level 2 and 3. By the way I'm the only one in my family with any kind of disability, I have also told my mum about my brothers before but she don't do anything either. My youth worker said she is very proud of me as I am such a hard working young person. But do people look at me and think to themselves "He has a disability"? And do people look down on me and respect me less because I have a disability? And also do they like and respect people more that don't have any kind of disabilitys, and people who have got better qualifications? I need help, I have thought about killing myself, I feel soo down, upset and confused. I have nearly killed myself so many times, I don't know how much more I can take I am worthless and my life don't mean anything. Can anyone give me any advice or help? What should I do? And please don't say brothers are meant to call me these names as what they call me is just evil. As far as I have been told I have just got a mild learning disability. Thank you in advance

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Should I get looked down upon and judged for my disability? I'm so confused please help? (UK)?

Hello everyone, first of all I know I have asked this before, but I am now posting it in this section as I other people's opinions and thoughts. I am 19 years old soon to be 20, I live in Cambridgeshire which is in England. I have got a mild learning disability, and I went to a special needs school. My older and younger brother called me horrid names such as retar., spast.c, they call me things like physco and useless, and I have never had paid employment but I have got 18 months of work experience (Voluntary) I have worked at the Co-Op and at Tesco's. My brothers say I have been to so many job interviews and I will never get a job because they say I'm a spast.c and a retar. they say I wasted my time at collge and I haven't got good enough qualifications to get a job, here is the full list of all of my qualifications The qualifications I gained at school: * The FA Football Development Programme, Junior Football Organisers Course * Edexcel, Entry Level Certificate subjects, English Entry Level 3, RE Entry Level 2 * AOA, Entry Level 3 in Science * OCR, Entry Level 3's in, Information And Communication Technology, and Physical Education * Edexcel, GCSE Certificate grade E in Art And Design * OCR, GCSE Certificate in Mathematics grade G * Bronze Duke of Edinburgh Award * Trinity College London Bronze Level 1 Award in the Arts Qualifications gained at college * FE Level Up Award Bronze * OCR, National Skills Profile, Retail * Young Lives, Certificate of Achievment, as a Vinvolved volunteer with the Prince's Trust Team * OCR, Level 1 Certificate in Adult Numeracy * City & Guilds, Certificate of unit credit towards Personal Development and contributing to the community, Entry 3 planning for prpgression, Entry 3 Community project, Level 1 Career planning and making applications, Level 1 Supporting others, Level 1 Work- based experience * College course learner of the month award * City & Guilds Level 1 Certificate in Adult Literacy * City & Guilds Level 2 Certificate in Adult Literacy * Edexcel, Certificate of unit achievment, Level 1's in Applying for a job, Preparing for an interview and Interview skills * Nocn, Credit/s Awarded, Entry Level 3's in, Developing skills for use and maintaining garden tools, Introduction to propagation of plants, Induction to College, Developing an awareness of soil types, Introduction to garden horticulture, Developing skills for sowing and growing plants. * City & Guilds, Level 1 iTQ Certificate for IT users * City & Guilds Certificate of Unit Credit Towards, ITQ for IT Users, Level 1's in, improving productivity using IT, IT User Fundamentals, Using Email, Using mobile IT devices, and, Presentation software. City & Guilds Functional skills qualification in Information and Communication Technology (ICT) Entry Level 3 * City & Guilds Functional skills qualification in Mathematics at Entry Level 3 * Edexcel BTEC Entry Level 3 in Workskills * Edexcel Notification of Performance, Entry Level 3's in Managing Your Own Money, and, Planning An Enterprise Activity Other certificates and qualifications: Level 1 in football coaching, FA Emergency First Aid FA Safeguarding Children My older brother is a personal trainer and my younger brother is doing a level 2 IT course at college. My dad knows the names that they call me as he has heard them and I have told him, but he never does anything about it, and he said the other week I'm a physco and I have got mentle problems. I have recently started as a volunteer at Oxfam, and I am hoping to volunteet at a youth club soon. I have also recently started studying for my maths level 2 qualification. I am also soon to start a CompTIA A+ 2009 course. I am also hoping to start a ECDL Level 2 soon, a level 2 NVQ in Customer Service, a English GCSE, a level 2 and level 3 NVQ's in youth work. Website Design level 2 and 3. Text Processing level 2 and 3. By the way I'm the only one in my family with any kind of disability, I have also told my mum about my brothers before but she don't do anything either. My youth worker said she is very proud of me as I am such a hard working young person. But do people look at me and think to themselves "He has a disability"? And do people look down on me and respect me less because I have a disability? And also do they like and respect people more that don't have any kind of disabilitys, and people who have got better qualifications? I need help, I have thought about killing myself, I feel soo down, upset and confused. I have nearly killed myself so many times, I don't know how much more I can take I am worthless and my life don't mean anything. Can anyone give me any advice or help? What should I do? And please don't say brothers are meant to call me these names as what they call me is just evil. As far as I have been told I have just got a mild learning disability. Thank you in advance There is a user on here I think her name is Jan409 or something like that, and on one of my previous questions she said my qualifications that are at level 1 aren't worth the paper they are written on, is she right? That really upset me.

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Graphic Design, Website Design?

Need Clean and innovative Website design for webhosting co. A new fully managed website hosting company requires a very innovative and unique website design. They want to get away from the typical design that can be found all over the internet of thousands of companies who all look the same and it appears are probably using the same templates. Whats needed is a fresh, clean and simple design that shows the website hosting services being offered - in a very innovative manner. Preferable colors would be dark blue, shades of blue as that is what the logo would probably look like. Thanks, It is for 3 different design mockups. You must provide links to your portfolio that MUST have unique and unusual designs.

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